A little more everyday

Yesterday I told myself that I was going to walk further than I had been doing. To go outside, walk further and make it an epic adventure with the kids. 

I usually will walk on the treadmill and cool down walking by myself on our property, all before the kids wake up. I sometimes take the boys out in the back yard but I limit them unless we go to a park or something.

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In my head I make all these plans. I’m going to do this. I’m going to do that, and a lot of time it don’t get done or I completely forget even if I write it down because I forget to look back at the paper. Lol. A lot of times I’m just a hot mess. So I need to find a better way because I need to make more changes.

So today, I got the boys ready pulled out the stroller put Raiden in it and was wearing IV on my back and we set off. I didn’t know how far I was going to go but I went with how we all were feeling. 

I love taking pictures so everytime I stopped to take a pic Raiden fussed and said keep going. He was very vocal about this. It was new me but you know I appreciated it because it kept me going. My legs were burning. I was sweating. This was a good thing to stay on a pace because I need to become more fit. He was like a coach to me.

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I really want to lose at least 100 lbs.

4 years ago I was on a regimen and lost 50 lbs. It was hard work and I did it. Then i was pregnant the following 3 years after that. So I know I can do this. I’m not pregnant anymore. I just have to get into better habits again, and today felt great to start the week! I don’t know how far I walked but we were gone for over an hour. This walk was on top of my normal workout routine, so I’m really feeling it now. I’m sore but a good sore.

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I’m going to do this walk every day and go to other places to mix it up and see our neighborhood better. It’s so beautiful out here. It’s very scenic. There’s even a nice farm with cows, horses, sheep, other animals. There are local geese that congregate around here too. They haven’t migrated south yet but I know they will soon. They have been practicing their lineups and switch outs. I get really into paying attention to how they communicate with each other. 

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I’m glad I took action on another thing I tell myself to do.  Winter is coming and I’m not going to let that stop me either. I’ll just tandem babywear the boys.

Go outside and take a walk.

Do a little more every day!

It’s good for you.

Rosalie went on Strike

I woke up ready to start my day putting clothes away and hung up since it needed to be done. And yes it was with the boys awake unfolding all the clothes I was folding and on top of Charles because he was still asleep. I then came downstairs to make breakfast and the kitchen was a mess. I had asked the girls to clean up before the went to bed and it never happened food was even left out.

I was so frustrated. Like how can all of this get so messy so fast. I started cleaning up and then I said to myself “Stop what you’re doing” . I looked at Charles and said “I’m done cleaning this fucking house.” He looked at me because I use a cuss word but hey it got his attention. Then I said,

“I’m on Strike!”

He was so quiet. Mind you the girls were still sleeping and it was going on noon time. I was so mad. So I went upstairs to wake them up and their room was a disaster. I go in their bathroom and not only is the toilet paper gone and not replaced but the fucking roll was on the floor. I came back down stairs saying “I’m done!”.

I went outside for some fresh air and calm myself down. I did some deep breathing sets and then one of my friends calls me. I told her perfect timing. I chatted with 3 of my good friends that day and had alone time to get work done and brain dump onto paper. When I was all done that evening, magically the house was clean. Go figure.

Go Outside

My life as a mom is one of the greatest accomplishments! I have 5 living children that want my love. It’s the greatest feeling in the world. 

My reality however most of the time is constant go go go. Everyone needs me all of the time. I even need me. It’s very demanding. Most days I don’t get breaks. My two youngest sons rarely ever take naps at the same time. I really feel like they are doing it on purpose in code to each other so they get their alone time with me. So ultimately it’s really hard to take a break. I can’t even go pee and even look at myself in the mirror for a minute without one of them screaming their head off because I’m not holding or wearing them. I seriously feel like I’m going to loose it like every other day. I have my crying fits too. I keep saying to myself that this can’t be life. I can’t do this. I have no time to myself. So many days I’m not able to sew or create. I get sad a lot. Always cleaning too. Non fucking Stop!

Wtf.  

Something had to change. So first issue. I felt I had no breaks. Even when I did technically have 5 minutes to do something I would end up cleaning or something that needed to be done in the house. That usually led to the list of things to do to constantly grow. Completely making myself run down. I realized what I was doing. These things really didn’t have to be done right that moment. 

Some things can Wait! 

So when I had that moment when they might be sleeping or at least content I would take a few minutes to go outside. I started to do it daily and do it multiple times when able  especially on those days I was about to loose  it. It was my little alone time. Here is what I started out doing to be more aware and meditation even when it’s only a few minutes at a time.

  • Go Outside
  • Look up
  • Look down
  • Look all around
  • Close your eyes
  • Listen
  • Take 5 deep breaths

It’s as simple as that.  Over time I started including other practices so I can maintain a positive and happy attitude throughout the day. 

I will be sharing more practices that have worked for me with you in future posts. I have realized how important it is to simply take a moment. Even better when it’s outside. Really in all the outside elements. Fresh air is so vital to our wellness.   

Take a moment and Go Outside! 

🌈❤️ 

Shot from my backyard

Shot from my backyard