Sometimes I make plans for my day and they rarely go as planned or don’t happen at all because life.
But when I don’t plan and just see how the day goes and act on what I’m drawn to do, my days are amazing and fun.
Today we had one of those day. We made a mess painting and it was great. I even let the boys paint on the glass doors. It’s washable. I didn’t give myself unnecessary stress or anxiety because I had no expectations.
They had a fun bath together as always. No crying episodes either.
We ate good food and enjoyed the day outside too for a bit.
Thats one thing I’m working on, not giving myself unnecessary stress and anxiety. Some days I just have to let it unfold organically.
From a young age I have been doing things I was told I shouldn’t be doing because I was a girl. But I always felt that if I have the ability and confidence to do things that a man can do why shouldn’t I do it?
It’s the same way I feel about gender colors. Who made that up? Wear what ever color you please.
I had watched this video of Meghan Markle and it made me reflect on how far I have come with my own life in breaking boundaries.
Being persistently my actions I proved not only to myself but to my family that I can do anything I want to do and do it well. I worked in a so called mans world as a female journeyman carpenter for years and I proved my worth. While working on commercial construction sites I received tons of criticism and hate. Men stole my tools. They would do things so I would fail. But I kept rising above it and proved I deserved to work in this field just like them. It wasn’t a mans job. It’s a job for skilled people and I had those skills.
Eventually, I became known and was well respected amongst the trades. I even made strides for more women to become carpenters.
You can do whatever you want to do.
I woke up ready to start my day putting clothes away and hung up since it needed to be done. And yes it was with the boys awake unfolding all the clothes I was folding and on top of Charles because he was still asleep. I then came downstairs to make breakfast and the kitchen was a mess. I had asked the girls to clean up before the went to bed and it never happened food was even left out.
I was so frustrated. Like how can all of this get so messy so fast. I started cleaning up and then I said to myself “Stop what you’re doing” . I looked at Charles and said “I’m done cleaning this fucking house.” He looked at me because I use a cuss word but hey it got his attention. Then I said,
“I’m on Strike!”
He was so quiet. Mind you the girls were still sleeping and it was going on noon time. I was so mad. So I went upstairs to wake them up and their room was a disaster. I go in their bathroom and not only is the toilet paper gone and not replaced but the fucking roll was on the floor. I came back down stairs saying “I’m done!”.
I went outside for some fresh air and calm myself down. I did some deep breathing sets and then one of my friends calls me. I told her perfect timing. I chatted with 3 of my good friends that day and had alone time to get work done and brain dump onto paper. When I was all done that evening, magically the house was clean. Go figure.
The first time I met Rachel I was invited over to her apartment by her ex boyfriend. Yes they were still friends, it’s really not uncommon. I’m really good friends with my ex husband too. So anyways, she was going to be there and he wanted me to meet her because he thought I would really get along with her. Turns out he was so right!
She was super tall and stunningly beautiful. She literally had this glowing aura and she hugged me and I almost melted. I felt right then she was pure and a really good person.
Everytime we get to talking we have such cool conversations, we motivate and help each other out too. We both see and feel deeply, but most importantly love truly. We totally get each other.
I am so proud of Rachel! She has been blogging along with me daily on this journey to blog everyday for at least 3 weeks to create the habit and stickto goals. Go check out her blog site Positive Spread all about Positivity!🌈❤️
My life as a mom is one of the greatest accomplishments! I have 5 living children that want my love. It’s the greatest feeling in the world.
My reality however most of the time is constant go go go. Everyone needs me all of the time. I even need me. It’s very demanding. Most days I don’t get breaks. My two youngest sons rarely ever take naps at the same time. I really feel like they are doing it on purpose in code to each other so they get their alone time with me. So ultimately it’s really hard to take a break. I can’t even go pee and even look at myself in the mirror for a minute without one of them screaming their head off because I’m not holding or wearing them. I seriously feel like I’m going to loose it like every other day. I have my crying fits too. I keep saying to myself that this can’t be life. I can’t do this. I have no time to myself. So many days I’m not able to sew or create. I get sad a lot. Always cleaning too. Non fucking Stop!
Something had to change. So first issue. I felt I had no breaks. Even when I did technically have 5 minutes to do something I would end up cleaning or something that needed to be done in the house. That usually led to the list of things to do to constantly grow. Completely making myself run down. I realized what I was doing. These things really didn’t have to be done right that moment.
Some things can Wait!
So when I had that moment when they might be sleeping or at least content I would take a few minutes to go outside. I started to do it daily and do it multiple times when able especially on those days I was about to loose it. It was my little alone time. Here is what I started out doing to be more aware and meditation even when it’s only a few minutes at a time.
- Go Outside
- Look up
- Look down
- Look all around
- Close your eyes
- Take 5 deep breaths
It’s as simple as that. Over time I started including other practices so I can maintain a positive and happy attitude throughout the day.
I will be sharing more practices that have worked for me with you in future posts. I have realized how important it is to simply take a moment. Even better when it’s outside. Really in all the outside elements. Fresh air is so vital to our wellness.
Take a moment and Go Outside!
Sometimes you have to just stop resisting yourself. Stop fighting yourself. Stop procrastinating. Stop doubting yourself. Start listening to yourself. Start acting on what you really want to do. Start feeling good. Start being yourself!
There is only ONE you!