My emotions were triggered

I had saw the preview to the show This Is Us for this week and I wasn’t sure if I really wanted to watch it so I pushed it out a few days to watch it earlier in the day than before I went to bed. 

This weeks episode was about miscarriage. I had a miscarriage in 2014 after years of trying to conceive. I had been wanting to tell my story ever since but something kept stopping me from doing it. It still needs to be said and all of the details. When I was going through my natural miscarriage all the details I couldn’t find. All of the what’s going to happen to my body. The doctors didn’t have the answers I wanted. So I was left to see what happened. I was so alone. I had no support. But I made it through it. I miss my baby. I never found out if my baby was a boy or girl. Although I felt she was a girl. This episode brought back all of my memories of the devastating 2 weeks of my life. The 2 weeks that I will soon be able to share in a video so it can hopefully help and answer questions for another mom going through the loss of a baby and the changes your body will go through.